Internally. Yes.

I’m hoping that assisted suicide will be a thing, but I have come up with a contingency plan if it’s not. The worst thing I can imagine is being stuck in a nursing home and not knowing what’s going on or be unable to do things for myself.

My life didn’t start until my 40s and so I’m really grateful to have the opportunity to discover myself and do the things that I want to do and not be tied down to the needs of others. It feels amazing.

I do want to add, I never wanted kids or get married. My childhood dream was to connect to my inner compass, be authentic and express myself freely. I am grateful to be able to actualize this.

Gym and dog parks.

I agree. At the root of it, people want to feel safe. This is a fundamental need. Religion does this for them because they don’t need to make decisions and they’re promised that if they follow it they will indeed be kept safe. Also spiritual bypass is awesome.

I use YouTube for instructions on how to do things. I can listen to podcasts anywhere.

Is there a reason to have one over the other?

Wefwef also has it.

Ditto. Exercising never feels good. I don’t like being sweaty and I don’t like moving around unless I’m going somewhere for a purpose. The only way I’m able to “enjoy” it is if I smoke weed before or numb out on a tv show/movie so that I can pretend I’m not exercising. And then after working out I’m exhausted and need a nap. The entire process sucks. I’ve never been into sports either. Or riding the bike or swimming. Yoga is tolerable, but it’s better when I’m high.

I have a picture of a cartoon cheerleader on my desk. She’s always cheering me on. It feels good to be encouraged and supported. I’ve been wanting to get a cheerleader Barbie for some time now but I haven’t found ones with normal sized heads.

I also have birthday candles and every once in a while I’ll buy a piece of cake and blow a candle out, to celebrate everything that I’ve done.

That indeed is an important question. You can surpass the 10mm offering. Having your cake and eating it too.

Focus on the things you can control. My emotional state has significantly improved when I decided to do this.

Thanks! I’ll try to make it over the holidays.

How long does that take? Are you using high heat?

Is the broccoli already cooked? Or are you just heating it up to absorb the sauce?

Morbid but… I find comfort in knowing that we’re all going to die. Some sooner than others of course but at the end of the day we’ll all be dead. There’s comfort it knowing that life isn’t forever, and so we should figure out what’s important to us now and not defer it to retirement or some other arbitrary time.

I wish I could take a pill for my issues. I’m doing inner child work with a 12 step.

The last time I shared in my support group. I can go to a meeting right now on zoom and be heard, seen and understood. I never knew the importance of support until I found my support group. (I’m in a 12 step).

an extension.

i installed karamel and now my comments are from reddit posts that discuss the video i’m watching. i find that to be really helpful.