Holy shit… When I got my wisdom teeth out, I literally broke down in tears after being awake for 20 minutes without Percocet
Friend, it’s ok to take opiates sometimes…
Kratom could be an option. You make it into tea, the first cup is a weak stimulant, the second (on an empty stomach) will start to work as a weak opiate. The third or fourth might give you stronger relief. The red strains are supposedly better for pain relief
You can’t OD on it, it’s commonly available in head shops or online. The addiction potential is very low, you’ll make yourself nauseous before getting what you’d get out of normal opiates. It’s most closely related to the coffee plant - the toxicity concerns are all about contamination, the plant itself is pretty innocuous
I can give brewing instructions if anyone wants to go down that path, I drink it for anxiety but others say it helps with pain management
Would you give a few hundred dollars and couple dozen hours of learning? Because this is a very achievable goal